Thoughtful

I've been thinking a lot about making a "comeback" really focusing on what I want to be as a person, which includes being more healthy, active and not as focused on my love of food.

Because I do love food.  I went with a friend and had breakfast on Saturday and it was SO delicious.  The french toast an the candied bacon.  Yum.  Delish.  I think about it often, I want to swim in the syrup.  It's just part of me.  I really liked food.

And frankly, I don't think anything's wrong with that, but I do need to mitigate it.

I am 98% behind a carb fast starting a week from today.  I've already thought of protein and veggie filled dishes that I really like, so that I won't feel like I am starving myself, or that my life lacks luster because I can't eat this or that.  I did a kickstart once with my friend Lara where we could only eat low fat proteins and cantaloupe.  I was pretty sure I was going to kill my family by the end of that.

I do want to feel like I have control over my body though.  I don't particularly, at this point... but I want to.

It's more then just the food though.  I tend to get up early and get all my jobs done and then collapse on the couch at about 2 pm and watch TV until the kids come home and sometimes beyond that point.

Frankly, I don't think there's anything wrong with an actual lunch break where I sit down and eat something and enjoy something that is just mine, but then I need to get up.

I need to find a hobby or something.  I'd like to make some of those ideas on pintrist a reality.  So many cute things to make for P.

Anyway, I'm wanting a life makeover.  Not just eating or health.  The whole she-bang.  Drew is heading back to work on Monday and my regular job life will return with just working once a week or so.  I always feel so invigorated at the beginning of the school year (which is crazy early here in AZ, darn it!  BUT my kids are tired of the heat, it'll be nice to have them occupied in an air conditioned building).  I can do this.  Who wants to support me?  What would you like to change about you?

Do you think it's possible?