Thoughtful

I've been thinking a lot about making a "comeback" really focusing on what I want to be as a person, which includes being more healthy, active and not as focused on my love of food.

Because I do love food.  I went with a friend and had breakfast on Saturday and it was SO delicious.  The french toast an the candied bacon.  Yum.  Delish.  I think about it often, I want to swim in the syrup.  It's just part of me.  I really liked food.

And frankly, I don't think anything's wrong with that, but I do need to mitigate it.

I am 98% behind a carb fast starting a week from today.  I've already thought of protein and veggie filled dishes that I really like, so that I won't feel like I am starving myself, or that my life lacks luster because I can't eat this or that.  I did a kickstart once with my friend Lara where we could only eat low fat proteins and cantaloupe.  I was pretty sure I was going to kill my family by the end of that.

I do want to feel like I have control over my body though.  I don't particularly, at this point... but I want to.

It's more then just the food though.  I tend to get up early and get all my jobs done and then collapse on the couch at about 2 pm and watch TV until the kids come home and sometimes beyond that point.

Frankly, I don't think there's anything wrong with an actual lunch break where I sit down and eat something and enjoy something that is just mine, but then I need to get up.

I need to find a hobby or something.  I'd like to make some of those ideas on pintrist a reality.  So many cute things to make for P.

Anyway, I'm wanting a life makeover.  Not just eating or health.  The whole she-bang.  Drew is heading back to work on Monday and my regular job life will return with just working once a week or so.  I always feel so invigorated at the beginning of the school year (which is crazy early here in AZ, darn it!  BUT my kids are tired of the heat, it'll be nice to have them occupied in an air conditioned building).  I can do this.  Who wants to support me?  What would you like to change about you?

Do you think it's possible?

Carbs

I, for the first time ever, am considering a carb fast. Good idea? I just hink I need to find some self control. And, that is all. :)

Thoughts?

Vacation

Headed on vacation at some point this summer...

I just need to remember to stay active.  I think I'll do fine as long as I really enjoy the food that I'm eating and I stay active.

what do you do on vacation?

Down, Up, Down, Up, Down....

I need to get back on track.  I need to just enjoy WHAT I am eating.... instead of stuffing my face, and thinking about what else I can eat.

I also need to actually eat at work, instead of feeling like my blood sugar is 12, and bieng ravenous much of the day.

I just need to work on those two things, for two more weeks.  Then I'm sure I'll have more problems. :)

A Bad Week

Blech.  A really yucky day on the scale.

Drew was gone all last week at scout camp, and I was working.  The shifts were insane, I maybe got a cup of water a few times in those 12 hours, lucky to get a half a sandwich...

Just one of those things.

Let's just say one's bowels really notice it when you're not drinking like you normally do.

But I'm back at it today.  I didn't workout this morning, but we did family fitness testing, and I think I may end up working this afternoon.

Life is good, just need to be good to myself.

I can do it....

Down the toilet

I feel like my weight is circling -- like toilet water.  It's SLOWLY going down (maybe a clogged toilet?) but it IS going down and I'm feeling a lot stronger. 

I felt like I was strong when I wasn't working out, but it turns out I wasn't.

Because I feel much more strong now. :)

I am loving riding my bike.  I'm hoping to take the kids out once or twice early in the morning sometime this week.

My butt isn't loving the bike as much as I am, to say the least.  What do you do to pad your posterior?

I realized today that my initial goal when I weighed 210 was like 175.  I really thought even THAT was a pipe dream.  But I'm down to 171 right now, and I've gotten to 158 so I know I can go lower, BUT I'm needing to live a lifestyle of health, not just weigh the right amount.

Weigh In

So, once again my weigh in really was nill.
I'm not sure how I feel about it.
I really am focusing on working out right now, and I find it somewhat difficult to be REALLY on top of what I'm eating when I'm working out a lot.
I finally got back onto my bike (note, P is 3, and I haven't biked since she was born and her pregnancy ruined my pelvis) on Saturday.  I'm hoping to do a lot more of that, I think it's great for my body and works JUST what needs to be worked on me.
Anyway, that's where I am at.  The pounds are circling lower and lower, but it's really slow and gradual, not what I'd hoped for, but time is on my side. :)