This is My Now

(Yes, the title is from that cheesy American Idol song that Jordin Sparks sang at her finale. Deal.)

I started my journey on January 8th with the goal to lose 50 lbs. this year. I started off strong, working along side a good friend who was the one to inspire me to start this journey in the first place...and then she moved.

And quite honestly, I was already getting complacent and lazy by the time she moved (it had been about 5 months or so since I started). And then summer happened. And then my nice little graph on the side of this blog went up and down and up and down.

The only thing that even kept me thinking about weight loss and fitness during those hard times was my friend/therapist/trainer. She's amazing. She has done everything she can to keep me on track, even though sometimes I just wouldn't listen. It was like I had a wall up.

When we started back up after a break a couple weeks ago she just gave it to me straight. She basically told me that I needed to work hard, track my food, do all those things because I should be losing weight right now! She said, "You're expecting a miracle in one hour a week." And it's true. I was. I thought hey I've got a trainer, now the weight will just slide off, right? Wrong! I have to do my part.

I've now realized that it's all about me. I'm doing this for me. It's ok for me to be selfish with this. It's ok for me to say I need 30 minutes to workout today while you watch the kids. It's ok for me to say no to someone who wants me to help with something because it will add stress to my life. It's ok!

So, this is my now. This is my brand new year. I'm recommitting and I'm more ready now than I think I've been this whole year. Make sure and check back to see updates including my own updates as well as tips, tricks, things I have found useful.

I'd also love to hear from you! What do you want to hear about? What things are you curious about?