"Hello, my name is Bruce"

{Bonus Points if you know what that line is from.}

Hello. My name is Mary, and I am a food addict and an emotional/stress eater. Phew! Feels good to admit that. I have been doing so great, my trainer says "I'm on fire!" I knew Thanksgiving vacation visiting family would be hard so I planned for it and I did really well for the first few days, and then Thanksgiving hit. And I let myself eat whatever I wanted "just for that one meal." And then the next day I had more pie, and then it was ice cream, and then In-n-Out, and then...well you get the idea.

I really am an addict, I'm starting to realize that. Just like you would not hand a recovering alcoholic a bottle of vodka and say "here, you can have some just tonight" I should not have told myself I could just do whatever I wanted for a day. I know better than that!

I was watching an old BL season and the doc was saying it takes weeks to retrain your brain to eat small portions, know when to stop, eat healthy, etc. But it only takes a couple days to retrain it back to those bad old habits. I knew that and yet I just kept on going and it snowballed. I can feel that I've gained a few pounds and that makes me sick.

But no more. No more snowball. Today, right now, I am recommiting. I am going to learn from my choices and then I am not going to look back and feel guilty, but rather take what I have learned and work even harder.